Open Territory SHINE YOUR TEETH UNTIL MEANINGLESS — Frustration

This thread takes place outside the clan's camp in its territory.

bluegale bluegale

devotion, hard to find
ShadowClan
Council Member
33
4
Freshkill
15
Pronouns
he/him

REPAY ME IN KIND



There is no rhyme or reason to why Bluegale finds himself alone in the pocosin. Then again, is there ever any reason for what he does? All of Bluegale's life, he's been impulsive. His childish nature has been a help and a hindrance. He has always been able to stave off the worst of things; running from any sort of impending negative feeling or otherwise finding himself avoiding conflict altogether. But now, in the shadow of Sablestar's elevating him to night guard and the starvation of his clan, Bluegale finds that he can no longer run.

Bluegale stands on the edge of one of the many amorphous ponds that dot ShadowClan's territory. The cold mud sucks at his white-tipped paws where they sink into the banks, slow-moving water lapping lazily at his paws. They've begun to grow numb from standing in the cold for so long, but Bluegale barely registers the feeling over his racing thoughts. He stares down into the dark water, wondering if there's anything at all swimming beneath the shallow surface. He grimaces at the thought and catches his displeased expression in the dark reflection of the water, finding disappointment at his own lack of willingness to try anything to feed his clan. Why had Sablestar appointed him?

A cold wind whips over the pond, sending a chill through Bluegale. He realizes that there are barely any sounds around him other than the lapping of the pond water and the rustling of swamp foliage. There's no skittering of nearby prey, no singing or calling of insects, and no croaks or chirps from frogs and toads. The night guard grits his teeth and pulls his paws from the mud, ignoring the painful burning sensation of moving his numbing limbs. He turns to move swiftly along the edge of the pond, eyes darting in search of some amphibious prey he might be able to pick out among the shadows.

Then, there is a frog whose hibernation has been unceremoniously disturbed, but Bluegale finds his impulsiveness to be a hindrance once more. An uncoordinated dart toward his target leads Bluegale face-first into the pond. It's an easy escape for the frog, who disappears into the dark water as Bluegale pulls his head out of the water. "Fuck," he hisses between gritted teeth. Now much muddier and colder than he'd already been, he pulls himself backward onto the bank once more.


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bluegale is a shadowclan night guard who is gregarious and loud.
45 moons old, ages on the first day of each month.
currently mentoring ghostpaw, formerly mentored websight.
in battle, physically difficult and psychologically easy
his parents are swan x meister and he is siblings to halfshade and hollowmist.
penned by carat, see his tags here.


 
CROWPAW | SHADOWCLAN
"WHEN ALL THE HATE BURNS OFF, I'M LEFT HERE WITH THE PAIN"

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Crowpaw's breath billows slowly from their mouth as they pace through ShadowClan's territory, the only audible sound being that of their paws crunching the frost-laden earth. They've grown thankful for the way that their toes go numb from the cold; in the warmth of their nest, the ache from walking every day keeps them awake. They are weak. Defeated, both physically and emotionally. Their bones, jutting through their dark-furred form, creak underneath their own waning weight.

Slumped shoulders perk up slightly upon the sound of splashing water nearby, followed by frustrated cursing. Crowpaw slips through the fog, looking at Bluegale's sopping face with confusion. Is he TRYING to get sick…?
Crowpaw nearly says that out loud, but he bites his tongue. Thinks of Amethystpaw's trembling form, of the look Belladonnadance gives him when he gets himself into trouble. Claws digging into the mud, he trudges forward toward the Night Guard. At least he's trying to feed the Clan. Willing to risk his well-being for it. I should be doing more too. I should be doing more. I need to do more.

"Do you… uh, want some help?" Crowpaw allows herself to crouch near Bluegale, staring out at the darkness of the pond. Maybe if she gets lucky, some of its denizens will inspect the sudden splash on the surface… some fish taking a peek, some frogs coming up out of the mud… anything. Just give me anything. I can't go back empty-pawed again.


mentor tag @Belladonnadance
"BEHIND OUR VAIN DEVICES, ARE WE ALL THE SAME?"

CROWPAW
SHADOWCLAN APPRENTICE
9 MOONS
SHE/HE/THEY
"SPEECH" | THOUGHTS | ACTION
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