The wild crest of Lucille's neck and shoulders prickled coldly as she rounded the perimeter of cats, the smell of herb packs for the worst of their injuries becoming concentrated. Last meeting had not gone so well, but she wasn't sure if that was for her or for Dusty. She felt petulant, like a kit, at the notion of such abrupt changes, none of them she really thought of before or desired. The change she was chasing led her away from all of this: away from structure, from duty, from permanence.
Dustystar called upon two recognizable toms, the very ones she'd seen as the grey leader's company to the Highstones. The new names were callbacks of their old ones, close enough to even remain as nicknames. She never noted when she began to do as she did often, eyes never leaving Dustystar, staring absently as her mind took lead and went as far as the wind carrying through camp.
She assumed her position at the edge of the crowd disguised her from consideration. The calling of her name connected her thoughts together by a cord, sparks as her back twitched uncomfortably. Was it only a coincedence Dustystar acknowledged her after the toms she had brought with her to Highstones? Had she seen her, and this was how she was made aware?...
The alarm dissolved, tail unwinding from its soothing clutch around her as it began to swipe across the short grass. Lucille stood on the perception Dustystar had formed of her – strong will and spirit. Something about it made her ears burn. It was not the Lucille she saw when she looked into the puddles that had toured their territory. She had lied to her superior. Passed off her spite and bitterness as power, as confidence.
Goldenroar's thank you was not enough to mask the obvious confliction going on in her eyes. Just as quickly as she had changed Lucille, gave her something new in her collection of old ragged luggage, she was onto the next cat, extending this offer. The announcement of Raven's name overpowered the sound that came out of her mouth, something between a splutter and a grunt, quiet and unapproving.
Maremane. It was nothing like 'Lucille'. All of it was a cordial mention to the natural world, perhaps to soothe the supernatural nature of their Clan-shaping tragedy. She had been given a mask, hiding the dictionary definition that had formed around her birth name like a cyst. A name nobody wanted to hear on group hunts, a name delivered with flatness at best and negativity at most.
But it had been hers in a world where she felt like nothing else was.
Dustystar called upon two recognizable toms, the very ones she'd seen as the grey leader's company to the Highstones. The new names were callbacks of their old ones, close enough to even remain as nicknames. She never noted when she began to do as she did often, eyes never leaving Dustystar, staring absently as her mind took lead and went as far as the wind carrying through camp.
She assumed her position at the edge of the crowd disguised her from consideration. The calling of her name connected her thoughts together by a cord, sparks as her back twitched uncomfortably. Was it only a coincedence Dustystar acknowledged her after the toms she had brought with her to Highstones? Had she seen her, and this was how she was made aware?...
The alarm dissolved, tail unwinding from its soothing clutch around her as it began to swipe across the short grass. Lucille stood on the perception Dustystar had formed of her – strong will and spirit. Something about it made her ears burn. It was not the Lucille she saw when she looked into the puddles that had toured their territory. She had lied to her superior. Passed off her spite and bitterness as power, as confidence.
Goldenroar's thank you was not enough to mask the obvious confliction going on in her eyes. Just as quickly as she had changed Lucille, gave her something new in her collection of old ragged luggage, she was onto the next cat, extending this offer. The announcement of Raven's name overpowered the sound that came out of her mouth, something between a splutter and a grunt, quiet and unapproving.
Maremane. It was nothing like 'Lucille'. All of it was a cordial mention to the natural world, perhaps to soothe the supernatural nature of their Clan-shaping tragedy. She had been given a mask, hiding the dictionary definition that had formed around her birth name like a cyst. A name nobody wanted to hear on group hunts, a name delivered with flatness at best and negativity at most.
But it had been hers in a world where she felt like nothing else was.