Hello and welcome to Purrgatory! We are an 18+ Warrior Cat Roleplay set in an AU where the clans were unable to leave the forest territories and perished!
It has been 100 or more years since then, the clans of the forest are but distant memories to any cats still alive, stories passed down to kits of strangely named wild warriors and leaders with nine lives but the time of the clans is upon us once more and the stars shine yet again.
{$title} Shortly after the meeting, Flowercloud has decided it's been long enough of distancing herself
There was nothing but tension between her and her children- at least Cygnetpaw and Rosepaw. Rosepaw cast her looks of… hatred, it felt like. The looks that sent daggers to cut up her heart, that sent her feeling like she was choking. And she was… tired. Tired of the distance between them, tired of hurting, and she did her best to stay away.
But as she pawed at the feather she laid next to her when they finally made their nests, she couldn't help but finally bring it to her son. He didn't need to forgive her, she doubted she deserved that much after what she put them through, but nonetheless she just wanted to talk to him. She wanted his presence, it never stopped. She loved him, she fought for him- and they were older… they deserved the attempt… they deserved better. And she wanted nothing but to be better for them.
Her teeth carefully picked up the hawk feather, green eyes lifting as she took a deep inhale between gently gritted teeth, her throat already tight, and stomach twisting in anxiety starting to form. It wasn't hard to pick him out of camp, finding his form and approaching cautiously, as if he may bite her head off. What else could she expect, anyways? She lied to them.
She messed up.
Flowercloud carefully placed the hawk feathers down before him, looking up with a gentle gaze of warmth she always spared, especially to her children. "Rosepaw, I saved this for you- a gift. It, made me think of you, the entire time." She shifted uncomfortably, but tried her best to settle her anxious form as she dropped her gaze from him.
You are so so big now… "You're intelligent, proud, free spirited, and- I'm sorry. You guys… didn't deserve me lying to you. I.. wanted to protect you, far longer than I should have. Protect you from… hardships of life, and from feeling abandoned. Crow… didn't see you guys as I see you. He… didn't see how amazing you guys were like I do. And… I-" she almost choked on her words, her anxious rambling suddenly stopping, kneading uneasily into the frozen ground.
"Youre right. I should have fought harder for him to come. It was… hard to even get him to come see you guys when you were young. It was…hard seeing you guys looking for him, and waiting for him to come, when he never would. And that's… it wasn't fair for you guys. It was painful for me. I.. I didn't want to have you guys keep trying to find a father in someone who… seemed to never want to be one himself… that's what it always seemed to me."
She sighed, her body slinking down in almost defeat. "I'm so proud of you guys… I've always been proud of you kits. I guess you're not kits anymore, youre so big now. And, I guess that's why I still… feel like I need to protect you from the world. But again, I'm, I'm sorry. That I didn't tell you the truth from the beginning. I should have. He, he just wanted us to turn away from Skyclan, to settle in the twoleg house he resides in. There wasn't a way I could sway him- but I should have tried harder."
Her green eyes finally lifted and her paws rested from picking at the grass, and she'd look into her sons eyes, guilt filling them. Her ears held back and her head lowered. Awaiting his response, awaiting what could ultimatel
y be her demise.
@Rosepaw