He had made the decision that felt right, but it didn't feel good at all. All he could imagine doing when he re-entered the camp was curling up in his den and covering his ears, perhaps hoping that totally blocking out the world would make the last couple of hours inconsequential. But he couldn't do that. Brightpetal had made the choice to be Juniperstar's Deputy, he had made the choice to be her voice when she could not speak - he hadn't expected it to be easy, but he hadn't expected the hard decisions and failures to feel so crushing either. He didn't speak to his clanmates on the journey home, didn't know what to say, whether he would apologise profusely for letting them down or lash out because they'd made an awkward situation even worse, either way, it was too difficult to meet their eye.
How he was going to meet Juniperstar's was anyone's guess.
Heaving himself into camp, Brightpetal called out, "A word, everyone?!" He flashed a waning smile on instinct, assurance that things would be ok even if the news he carried was troubling. The name ShadowClan still confused him more than he'd like to admit, but in a sea of uncertainty, it was but a tiny wave. A tiny wave that, when compared to the tsunami he was otherwise dealing with, felt quite noticeable in comparison.
"We... encountered some problems near the Thunderpath. Sable's followers were there... waaaay too many of them, kits included. They were hunting on our grounds and I... They refused to budge. Then Sable came and Thunderflash attacked him and... long story short, they have that part of the territory for now. I'm sorry, if I'd known their patrols were that large, I'd have never sent such a small group that way." Apologetically, he flattened his ears, head disappearing into his neck fluff as he dipped it in humility. The idea that someone may have died because of him was nauseating, too easily did their neighbours wear a badge of death that any idea of harboring his own felt out of the question.
Maybe the clan would forgive him, maybe Juniperstar would forgive him, maybe even StarClan would, it was just a question of whether he could forgive himself for such negligence. He would pray for the ability to make better choices for his home, pray that he would find the strength to be a better Deputy for all of them. Again, that little ripple stirred in his mind, and though uncertain whether a divine thunderbolt would smite him down, he tentatively lifted his head. "They... have given themselves a new name though. Sable told me they were called ShadowClan. If they're anything like us then... maybe they're a little more prepared than we are for things."