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Chrysalisgaze 𐀔 𓆣 𓆨 𖢥 𓆦 Gone cold, reawakened
Chrysalisgaze has been obedient, in hopes of getting to see her kits as soon as possible. Listening to every instruction Swallowbreeze has given her, making sure not to talk, (safe for when she relayed what had happened to Hawkstar,) not to go out and to rest her throat.
And now she was permitted to leave and Chrysalisgaze felt overwhelmed. Where should she go next, what should she do first? She got out of the healer's den and quickly had to close her eyes, for the sun shone too bright, the voices of all her clanmates ringing in her ears. Should she report to Hawkstar? Visit her children in the nursery? Grab some food? Chrysalisgaze's mind was full of conflicting emotions and commands and so she just stood there, frozen, legs trembling slightly.
The little warrior took more from her than just her blood, it seemed. She thought she was finally okay, after days spent healing, but the real healing was only about to begin - getting used to sleeping in her own nest again, waking up shivering from the nightmares, eating with the wound on her throat. It was all new to her, but she couldn't fix it, not yet at least. Despite her wounds closing, the ache in her heart has not lessened, hurting for herself, her family, for her clanmates. Even for the little warrior. What must they have gone through to be filled with so much rage and bloodthirst? And, though Chrysalisgaze has lost the fight to her own foolishness, the little warrior didn't leave the fight unscathed. She hoped they made it home, to their own healer and clanmates. More and more she was convinced the little warrior was a clan cat. The way they moved and fought, the way they spoke. It was clan mannerism.
Chrysalisgaze couldn't remember much about them, only their small yet fierce frame and their eyes. Amber, like her little Berrykit's, but full of hate. For her, SkyClan or the whole world, Chrysalisgaze did not know. She wondered if she would ever find out.
The thoughts of the fight caused pain to ripple up her scarred leg again, scars from when she blocked an attack to her throat. She deflected it once. The second time, she didn't even see the little warrior coming.
Breathe, Chrysalisgaze. she told herself, sitting down to calm her heart, tail twitching. You'll get through this. She was alive - for that she was more than thankful. She had learned afterwards that her own sister had found her, laying so close to camp, on the brink of death. Chrysalisgaze's heart ached at the thought of her family seeing her in that state. All she wanted was to make sure the borders were safe - what she got instead was a wound and a memory she would never forget.
She blinked once, twice. She was in camp now, safe. Surrounded by clanmates that loved her and cared about her. She was okay. She was okay.
Finally she looked up, the sun no longer hurting her eyes. The faces of her clanmates came into focus and she smiled to herself. She was okay.
