TW: Sensitive Content I hate my reflection || Plague

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Freshkill
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deidre

Talon recognized her. He guess he had a thing with faces, but it was hard to ignore hers. She stuck out of windclan like a sore thumb. She was a bit different, then though. Her belly had been swollen, and now seeing her as he sat in front of the medicine den as he usually did, he noted the fact three kits played nearby her.

They gave her ten seconds.

Her white paws was stained with red. Her eyes empty- but something told him they were just broken. He tried not to focus on politics, but this was when he fled from watching them too. They chased her like rabid animals- and he couldn't risk that. He had grown smarter, and he knew at this point, he was no longer safe. The fact he even managed to survive that long watching from the distance was pure luck and caution.

He never approached an adult, but something told him to. Some itching feeling that gnawed at the brown furred child. Some urge that needed to be poked and prodded at. And besides, he didn't like being stared at. He was sure she wouldn't like it either. The kits had wandered a bit away, and it was safe to say that he could speak to her in private. White spotted paws led him over, the prickling feeling coming back and beginning to tear into his stomach. But he remained stoic, unnerved. "I recognize you." It was clear as day, despite his usual laze of words that rolled off his tongue. His blue eye watched her carefully, his torn ears burned. A beat. Two. "Yer Ivory. Y' was part of th' group that tore m' ears, stole m' mouse, an' left me in a ditch." His voice was blunt, cold, and his expression was unwavered. She didn't do anything. She probably didn't even know of his existence.

If she could read him, perhaps shed read flashing across his gaze a bit of confidence- an expression of 'but I survived.' "I ran too, when they chased y'." He admitted, hesitantly. His head turned, now. Blue gaze drifting to the children, tumbling over each other, then back to Ivory. " 'm Talon."

@Plague
 
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There had been a little shadow of hers lately, that stray kitten that showed up some time after herself. Injured, orphaned, and alone. She cares not why the boy had been watching her from the medicine cat's den, nor about how he may have been adjusting to the Clan. He was not hers, and she had no intentions of letting him think so.. if that so happened to be his reasoning.

Plague watches her kits play, perched nearby with her tail wrapped delicately around her paws, and her chin raised diligently as a pair of eyes stares needles into her back once more. Talon's distant presence was an easy thing to be ignored.. until the young tom finally summoned the guts to approach her. He approaches her with a certain bluntness to him, the stoic gloominess expected from a kitten whose been through so much. Plague looks at him through the corner of her eye, unmoving in stature, awaiting some sort of greeting or childish question.

The words that she hears instead widens her eyes.

"Of course you do. We both live here,"
Plague replied casually, quickly - too quickly, perhaps. Would an apprenticed-aged feline be so privy to the panic that guides her words? After a couple of beats, Talon continues, uttering words that she never expected to hear from cats outside her colony. Her old name runs her blood cold, and the mention of her home skips a beat in her heart. That little thing? she thinks, recalling the long-ago report of a rogue kitten stealing their prey. If the risk of her secret wasn't so dire, she could almost chuckle - such a small world, is it not?

He ran, too. He saw her chased off, followed by those devilish guards snapping at her heels like hounds. That means he might have seen her exile - might have seen the blood on her paws. Plague's stomach churns, but she doesn't show her apprehension. Finally, the queen turns her head and cranes her neck down towards the kitten, giving him a saccharine smile.
"Aren't you a brave one?"
she coos, gritting her teeth underneath her polite expression.
"Well, Talon.. I would love to make it up to you. How about a little walk, just you and me? We can catch you a field mouse, or a rabbit."


The boy's answer is decided for him as Plague swiftly raises her head and waves to her kittens and a queen nearby.
"Watch them for me for a moment, will you? And children, behave!"
Then, she stands, raising her tail in faux friendliness.
"Dustystar won't mind - we'll only be a bit. And if we can find anything, she'll be quite proud of your catch! Come along now!"


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  • ooc:


  • PLAGUE — SHE/HER ・ 25 MOONS ・ QUEEN ; WINDCLAN ・ PENNED BY IXORA
    a complex molly; timid and meek on the surface, but what dwells beneath?
 
He was quick to pass off her words. No, no it wasn't just that. And he knew it. Knew it as soon as the name slipped from his tongue. There was a way her jaw gritted, his own was taught- his blue eye narrowing at the subtle movement. But she smiled, calling him brave- offering a walk. He didn't want to, his head turned, good eye watching with slitted pupils that were uneasy. "Fine." He says simply, seeing the way she beckoned for another queen to watch over.

It was apparent he didn't have a choice. Likely, she felt this small little privacy wasn't enough. And that was enough for him to give in. He felt the tight muscles as he stood up to follow. Yeah sure, a hunt. He didn't know of any rules against leaving camp, and what mattered was he was not alone. He didn't want to be alone, and stretching his legs would be better. It would probably ease Meadowpaw a bit if he moved around more. Explored a bit. Sure his hunt with the rabbit wasn't the grandest, but perhaps Ivory could help him better with that. Maybe.

As they moved past the camp, and further out, he kept his good eye on her, a wariness gnawing at him. His mind thought back though, how he felt swarmed with two older cats, circling him like he was the prey, the mouse underneath his paw. Calling him the thief as they snagged it from him. He blinked, slowly, returning back to the present.

"I understood y'. I think y' were in the right. He treated y' like y' were everything- yet hid y' like nothin'. He got what he had comin' t' him, Ivory." He said, his tail flicking behind him as he stretched white spotted toes in the soft blades of grass. "I think ya'd do better here. Yer kiddos would be safer." He mentioned casually, as if they were old friends.
Talon he/him, windclan 8 moons old.
black tabby with dark greyish brown undercoat and white underbelly. white crest on chest, and scars lining left side of face, blinding his right eye. icey blue eyes and white that is slowly starting to streak his features. Back scars non-existent for now.
mentored by Merrystalk // mentoring none
littermate to none
NPC x NPC / father/mother to none / mated to none
"speech" // "thoughts"
penned by Deidre ↛ deidre on discord, feel free to dm for plots. Art by PurpleCandyCorn.
 
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And so, the pair wanders into the wild. It is a decent day today, with a blue sky and a nice leaf-fall breeze; the grass is browning gradually, painting the moor a watercolor-like mirage of green and auburn. Plague does her best to remain cordial as they begin their walk, with her tail head high and a small smile upon her face. It is only when the boy continues to speak of her past that her expression twists in the subtlest of ugly ways. The distraction, obviously, did not work.

In the right. A dry chuckle left Plague's maw. Not that she did the right thing - but that she was justified. What really was the right thing, anyway? She could have remained professional, allowing Hemlocke the distance he needed to be with his mate, to then raise her kits on her own, the prime example of a broken family in the Colony's eyes. Or, she could have did what she did, and raised them alone in a foreign world, never to fully escape their labels as outsiders. The opinions of others on this situation did not matter - there was no easy way. There was no right way.
"I did what I had to do,"
the molly replies dryly, after some thought. Whether vengeance and justice was a factor or not - it was what had to be done.

"Safer? Perhaps."
They were fed. They were warm. They had their mother, and Clanmates to care for them.
"They would be safe regardless. They have me. But.. yes. It helps to have a group."


But that's just the thing. The Clans were built on honor, and respect. They were built on law and code, of a mutual understanding that they were a functional society needing such rules. WindClan, in particular, had been kind and caring, a maternal-like instinct drifting between each and every cat. With this knowledge of Ivory and her past being held by a young child, at the age where secrets and gossip run rampant, how long would it be until the truth of her exile was revealed? How long until WindClan realizes they have a cold-blooded murderer in their midst, and seize her kits from her to send her back into a life of shame and fear?

"You know... what you saw,"
Plague begins, slowing to a halt. They are atop a hill now, with camp miniscule in their vision from afar.
"No matter how.. right.. it was - it was still a crime. It was dangerous."
She looks down towards Talon now with golden eyes unreadable.
"WindClan would not take kindly to such information. How am I meant to keep my children safe if I am cast out for what I've done?"


She turns to look at the moorland. In all its beauty, it is still an unpredictable expanse. The distant bark of a fox reaches her ears, perhaps chasing after its prey or calling to its mate. Did Talon hear it, too?
"This world is dangerous. It is my responsibility to be a protector - for my kits, and even for you now, as we walk."
A troubled sigh leaves her mouth, part of her façade.
"But I cannot protect if the Clan thinks of me as a murderer. I'm not like the Colony - I would look out for you. But.. sadly, I can't do that if WindClan discovers what you've seen unfold. You understand, don't you?"


Her gaze, once complicated and unclear, now grows sharp and cold as she looks down at Talon. Plague could leave him here, alone atop a hill, until that fox or a hawk passing by catches wind of him. She should, given all the power he holds in his paws, whether he knows or not. But if there's one thing she's learned, one thing she should have known before, it's that fear can often times hold more threat than actions.
"It seems we may not be able to hunt today. Not with a fox loose in the territory. It's a lucky thing you had me here to hear it, isn't it? Otherwise.. it could very well catch you, and WindClan would never see you again."
That eerily saccharine smile reappears, though her glare remains piercing.
"You remember which way we came, don't you? Lead us home, Talon."
A taste of what it may be like to be alone, without his protector looming over him. What may happen if they are not in understanding.

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  • ooc:


  • PLAGUE — SHE/HER ・ 25 MOONS ・ QUEEN ; WINDCLAN ・ PENNED BY IXORA
    a complex molly; timid and meek on the surface, but what dwells beneath?
 
"I did what I had to do," and Talon could not argue with that. He had said the same thing essentially, he did what he had to do to survive. And that meant not playing, not harboring emotions, not allowing himself the freedom to wonder. He took facts as cold and hard as they were given to him, and he made no way to allow for much of his own thoughts. And it was different here, feeling... Safe. It did not mean he cared to feel protected, to feel helped- in fact he had made it clear he'd pay them back for every herb used on him, every word wasted on the young boy.

Plague did not seem to agree with him, saying they would've been safer regardless, and talon dipped his head. "I meant no disrespect." He responded flatly, letting his shoulders roll and groan as he walked. Her steps slowed, and he slowed with her, keeping his good eye on her form that stood out against the moor like a sore thumb. He thought for a moment as she stood there, that if his pelt was like hers- they would seem similar then she may realize as she spoke.

Except he would paint his fur with mud.

Guise himself better.

But he would not say that aloud, letting his tongue roll in his mouth as she spoke about what she did was a crime- was dangerous if windclan found out. That she could not protect her children. "Defending yourself is wrong?" The question didn't come off so much, but his eyebrow raised in the confusion, telling her to explain better. But his body stiffened, his torn ears folded back and his missing eye stung of danger unsaid as a loud bark echoed across the moors.

And plague said even now, she was meant to protect him. That's how he understood it, at least. "Y' don't need t' protect me... I was raised on protectin' myself. Of survival, and surviving. The fox that barked is dangerous not just t' me, but t' y' as well. But I understand. Y' children need ya, an' I wouldn't take that from them. I will not tell a soul," Talon said as he watched the moors on the hill alongside plague. The threat did not seem to reach him, but he understood the message nonetheless. Plague was needed to stay plague- not ivory. It was her own guise.

It wasn't a good one, but Again, talon would not tell that to her. But plague continued, and he felt his body shifting on his paws, his blue eye remained emotionless, but there was something that clicked as Plague continued that spoke volumes- yelled danger. He felt his pelt bristle, and his chest tighten, and without a word as she asked him to direct them home- he would turn. His curiosity was killed in this moment, as plague seemed to turn on him. But it was more of an understanding, perhaps. His tongue rolled in his mouth, and he sniffed the grass as they walked, following the scent they left behind on the way here.

He definitely wouldn't allow Meadowpaw the freedom to walk alone, at least. Him? He wasn't so sure plague was right. He'd learned his mistake with the Raccoon, costing him his eye. He wouldn't let the same mistake happen with a fox.
Talon he/him, windclan 8 moons old.
black tabby with dark greyish brown undercoat and white underbelly. white crest on chest, and scars lining left side of face, blinding his right eye. icey blue eyes and white that is slowly starting to streak his features. Back scars non-existent for now.
mentored by Merrystalk // mentoring none
littermate to none
NPC x NPC / father/mother to none / mated to none
"speech" // "thoughts"
penned by Deidre ↛ deidre on discord, feel free to dm for plots. Art by PurpleCandyCorn.