Meadowpaw
Maybe I'm the only one who survived
Maybe I'm the only one who survived


WindClan
Medicine Cat Apprentice
MEADOWPAW
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// Takes place AFTER the halfmoon meeting but BEFORE the gathering.
The gathering left a bitter taste in all their mouths. Until that night, the barn fire was the last time she had seen so much suffering. All that pain, coming from the actions of others rather than some freak accident, shook Meadowpaw to her core. She returned to camp drained and with more questions for StarClan than she knew what to do with. She needed to understand how they were supposed to continue. How could they exist alongside their neighbors after witnessing so much violence? Should they cut ties completely? Could any of them still trust one another after that?
StarClan had all but commanded them to keep attending the gatherings, but Meadowpaw had doubts that she couldn't lay to rest. There was still so much about the starry cats that she didn't understand. Becoming friends with Ragwort shed light on a side of the afterlife that StarClan didn't speak of. That place—that dark and empty forest—it scared her.
Beyond that, being unable to locate the cats they lost was rattling. Meadowpaw hadn't told the rest of WindClan what Leopardsoft had said, simply because she couldn't bear to hurt them. Moons passed since the fire and they were still grieving what was lost, and she didn't want to be the one to reopen those old wounds. After all, she was one of them. Always stumbling over her own paws, trying to pick up all the pieces of what broke back then.
Talking with Hollowmumble helped clear some things up. Moving forward as an apprentice medicine-cat, she opened her eyes to who she was and who she wanted to be moving forward. Turning away from what happened would've been easy, but that wasn't who she wanted to be anymore. That was part of why she'd chosen to visit RiverClan. Much of their situation was still a mystery to her, and despite the difficulty of the journey she wanted to make a real effort to understand and to help where she could.
They kept as steady a pace as could be hoped for with her slowing them down. Each of them carrying their own bundle of herbs. Eventually, the river did come into view. A natural border that no one could cross without a clear intent to do just that. "I-I think we just wait here? Right?" She mumbled through a mouthful of herbs. Respecting borders was a must. What happened to Juniperstar wasn't something she ever wanted to see a repeat of.
She was jittering with nerves from whisker to tail, humming uneasily as they waited. With any hope they wouldn't have to wait long before the next patrol...
@Dustystar @DIMMINGSUN @Hollowmumble @PIKESTAR @Jinglemoon
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x I BELIEVE THAT THERES COURAGE BUT ITS BURNIN' LIKE ASH IN THE WIND x -
WINDCLAN MEDICINE CAT APPRENTICE 10 MOONS SHE/HER Meadowpaw values kindness and remembrance. As a kit, she internalized her mother's lessons, but questioned whether her way is the only way. She has broken free from the heavy burden of her mother's expectations due to their estrangement after the fire. She remains kind and soft-spoken through all she's endured, but is not afraid to speak out for what she believes is right.
Meadow works tirelessly at any task she undertakes, desperate to prove herself capable and worthy despite her disability. Without her mother's guidance, she finds new ways to express herself.
In conversations, she is gentle, thoughtful, and withdrawn, often hiding her struggles, fearing others seeing her as incapable. She continues to have a strong bond not only with her sister, but with her adopted family as well. Meadow uses her new freedom to support and deepen the bonds with her clanmates. Additionally, she has started to explore the more spiritual side of herself…
Her worldview is a complicated mix of hope and frustration. She wants to believe that there's hope at the end of all the suffering, but feels trapped by her limitations. With enough time and support, she may find a way to overcome her limitations and accept herself.
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