ShadowClan the grease the chemicals // wolfpack

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A cold sensation had crawled it's way beneath Sablestar's skin and made home there since he began this small journey. His deputy beside him, the tuxedo had shared few words while they padded on side by side through the pocosin. Too many thoughts swirled through his mind to keep track of any small talk, which he is sure Wolfpack had no interest in, either. Thoughts of the haunting back in leafbare came to mind more recently. How they had trapped him and some of his Clanmates in a dream of agony.

He had died in that dream- he couldn't shake that fact. How his heart rapidly paced and his body writhed against it, fighting so uselessly. It was a feeling he had been on the brink of when fighting Hawthorne before given undeserved mercy. It's what he felt when Fleecefur pressed their noses together and he felt his bones being pulled to the ground as if they begged to be buried right then. The reaction, the feeling, it was all primal. Something inside that he had no control over and he hated how the fear consumed him.

Their paws find the dusty clearing of Fourtrees and a long exhale pressed through his nose as he looked over the space. No more ice and snow and blood. No more hunger and hate. Just tall grasses, bees and the shade to greet them.

"What do you feel when you see it like this?" So many more memories of happier days lived in Sablestar's body than the night they rebelled. Yet it is all the forest echoed to him every time he saw it. Another haunting with a different face no matter how many attempts he made to shove it down with his successes elsewhere. It wasn't regret that lived in his heart, however. ShadowClan and it's nature may have been his greatest feat to carry, but it all crumbled down when he thought of her. "I see necessity in failure. As foolish as it feels in the moment, knowing how to live through it is what leads to advancement after."

  • @WOLFPACK
    "mew"
  • SABLESTAR— he/him ・fifty-nine moons ・leader; shadowclan ・penned by gonkpilled
    a black and white tuxedo with dark amber eyes
 

AND I AM SORRY MY CONSCIENCE CALLED IN SICK AGAIN

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While Wolf wouldn't have turned his nose up at conversation, he made no effort to pursue it himself. Not because he lacked an interest in such things, but because him and Sablestar had never really had that kind of relationship. There were never jokes shared between them. Never moments of playful challenge. Just the formality of discussions surrounding patrols, borders, and issues with the other clans. Wolf had nothing to complain about, though. He didn't need to be buddies with Sablestar to hold the rank of Deputy– just had to do his job well enough to deserve it.

The old camp had grown greener since the last time he'd bothered to visit. This wasn't the first time the mottled tomcat had wandered out this way to hunt up herbs for cicada or to bring back prey that wasn't covered in slime or scales– but he'd never really gone back to the exact spot. Mostly because he'd had no reason to. Whatever attachment to this place others might have, Wolf lacked it. Hadn't lived there long enough for it to ever dig its roots into him.

When the pair of them finally reached the dusty clearing that was their old camp, Sablestar finally broke the silence that had settled over them since the start of their journey.

"What do you feel when you see it like this?"

Nothing, was his first thought.

There was no tidal wave of memory, no hollow stirring in his chest that rose to batter him with emotions. Just the feeling of the grass brushing against his ankles and the buzzing of insects in the summer heat. The place looked better than it had, that was for sure. Fuller, greener, alive in a way it hadn't been the night Shadowclan had been born.

But Wolfpack didn't look at the place and see ghosts. He didn't hear the screams or smell the blood. He didn't even remember the names of the cats who'd died there, not a single one important enough to keep. Instead, he looked at the trees and thought about how nice the shade must be in the summer heat. About how good teh squirrel population must be getting with all that canopy cover. He looked at the earth and noticed it's texture– drier than the peat back home, but solid, with a good give for a stalking paw. Easy to hunt on. Easy to die on, too.

When his gaze finally slid back to Sable, it was with a casualness that belied the weight of the question. "If you're waiting for me to say I miss it, I don't. I remember it starving, crawling with cats too proud to change. It's better now, but only because we've left it alone."

There was no malice in the way he said it. No disrespect. Just that same brutal matter-of-factness that shaped the rest of the feline.

"You're not wrong about the rest, though. Sometimes it's good to fail. If we'd won and chosen to stay here, this place never would have recovered the way it has. We definitely wouldn't be as strong as we are with the pocasin."

He could admit that much. As much as Wolf liked to win, it wasn't as if he was a stranger to failure. Running, regrouping, and surviving was sometimes the only way to move forward.

To fail.

To fall.

It was a natural part of the cycle.

"Why did you bring me here?" he asked, not unkind, but to the point. Wanting to know the why of it all. The purpose. "I know it's not to reminisce– Cicadabuzz would have been a better choice for that." the bug was likely more emotionally constipated that Wolfpack himself, but at least the two of them would have memories to share of the place, something the Deputy couldn't offer.


  • ooc :
  • shadowclan deputy - male - a large, monochrome chimera with mismatched eyes and several scars

 

An unsheathed paw swiped idly as the weak bloom of a dandelion in Wolfpack's short moment of silence. He shared it as he let the dried petals fall from between his claws. "I think breaking up the Colony was the best for Fray's legacy. Hawthorne nearly squandered it, so few will remember the tom he was. What this place used to be." If anything Wolfpack had proved that point already. In the grizzled tom's prime the canopy was teaming with the simplicity of life, travelers swung by for Serpent's aid and parted ways. Strangers came for a night away from a storm and disappeared before sunrise. Somewhere along the way it just grew, and grew, and grew until everyone was tail-to-nose with one another.

The tuxedo hummed through closed lips at his Deputy, finding a bit of humor in him. "No, no. I would have brought Mothbite if I wanted to waste daylight and dream. Our conversations tend to be less cryptic than bugs." Sablestar took a breath. "The night of the attack, I thought one of you had betrayed me for Hawthorne. We had moved so carefully, I was convinced he had stooped low enough to secure a spy, but... There was something else." The starless had led ShadowClan to succeed against the ascended traitors that had led his own mate astray. Using the adrenaline of Hawthorne's win to manipulate them.

"The spirit that came to me that night, when we came to the pocosin. She said that I was wrong. A power like hers had come to Hawthorne and warned him of the attack. She called it StarClan. They were going to give him the same boon she gave to me but..." Sablestar blinked away the image of how much blood soaked the fallen leaders neck. "I lived because he was foolish enough to show mercy. With my gift, I should practically be immortal, but... I should have died that night."

The sensation of panic raced through him again as his heart drummed searing pangs against his chest. He had felt in when the angry spirits of the pocosin raged in that sickly nightmare. As the air choked from his lungs one final time.

"I want you to do it. I have preserved my life an inch from death, but if I am to truly use this gift to defend my Clan I cannot keep myself trapped in my own preservation. I cannot stand to fear it a moment longer." Sablestar turned to face the spotted tom now, struggling to keep his breath steady. "Kill me, this life is yours."

  • "mew"
  • SABLESTAR— he/him ・sixty moons ・leader; shadowclan ・penned by gonkpilled
    a black and white tuxedo with dark amber eyes
 

AND I AM SORRY MY CONSCIENCE CALLED IN SICK AGAIN

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"No, no. I would have brought Mothbite if I wanted to waste daylight and dream. Our conversations tend to be less cryptic than bugs."

Wolfpack let out a humoured huff at the words. Sable wasn't wrong about that much.

"True." he relented, " But at least Cicada doesn't scowl at me like I kicked them out of their own nest whenever we talk. Just uses me as a walking storage unit."

The deputy didn't mind it, though, in either circumstance. Mothbites unfriendliness towards him was neither unexpected nor a nuisance to him. Just a curiosity. And it was Wolfpacks own paws that often stilled rather than carry him past whenever they spotted their healer out foraging, caught by something familiar, something he thought he might recognize.

From there the conversation turned to… other matters.

When Sablestar had first claimed to have been made 'champion' by a spirit who wished to resurrect their extinct clan, Wolfpack had called bullshit. There was nothing after death, most definitely not spirits with the power to grants extra lives to the mortal realm. The temptation to prove Sablestar a liar had been strong– to just kill him and take the clan for himself until someone was good enough to knock him off his throne– but perhaps suspecting the threat that sat looming over them, Wolfpack was placated as Deputy instead.

But after the situation with the bones. The strange things he'd experienced but couldn't give reason to. The shared dream that some of them still got upset over. It was hard to be completely skeptical. To not at least think that something was going on. He'd spoken to Cicadabuzz about it somewhat, but it was all still just words. Nothing tangible. Nothing he could see or experience for himself.

The spirits, if they existed, didn't speak to him or the rest of the clan.

So when the ink and bone tom began to speak of it all, Wolfpack listened. Not because he believed Sable was above lying to him, but because until the spirits chose to reveal themselves to him, the word of his leader and medicine cat was all he'd ever get, it seemed.

And Sablestar delivered.

Ridiculous. Was his first thought, his nature having always been bound to the reality he knew– but was it, really? If a cat could die and become a spirit. If that spirit could speak to the living and grant them extra lives. Why couldn't there be entire clans of dead cats as well? He had so many questions. So many suspicions. What business did the dead have with the living? Why had Starclan chosen Hawthorne? And what had made her choose Sable?

Just when he was about to ask what the point of telling him all of this was, the other tom drove the final nail home.

"I want you to do it."

For a moment, Wolf was sure he'd misheard, but the more the shadowclan leader spoke, the more the mottled tom realized that wasn't the case.

"Kill me. This life is yours."

His sharp exhale of disbelief was enough to tell the other just how he felt about that, but just in case their were any misconceptions, Wolfpack would say it to his face, also.

"Dogshit. What is this, some kind of test?" The words weren't snarled or spat, but it was clear he didn't buy it. That he didn't understand why Sablestar would want to throw a life away just because he was scared. Assuming he had the lives at all. "You need to know if I'll stay loyal or show my teeth the first chance I get? Is there a patrol waiting in the brush to jump me if I do?"

It wasn't a bad idea. Tempt the beast, prove it's dangerous, then eliminate it.

But Wolfpack had been given plenty of chances in the moons since Shadowclan formed. What would be the point in doing this now and not earlier?

Wolfpacks brows furrowed as he studied the other tom before him, and he wasn't sure how to feel about what he really saw. They didn't have that vigilant look to them of a cat expecting trouble. Didn't have any hint of smugness sitting in the corner of their mouth or the light of their eyes. If anything, Sablestar looked… rattled. But not by Wolfpack, or Fourtrees, or anything around them, really, despite him watching for a nervous flick of their gaze to give away what was truly eating at them.

"You're serious." His tone shifted into something less accusatory as he realized the other was truly struggling with this.

And that.. That changed things.

Because if Sablestar wasn't bluffing or baiting him or playing some kind of game, then this was just them– just a leader asking their deputy to fix a problem. And Wolfpack was good at that, particularly when said problem could be solved with violence.

But if he did this, it wouldn't be to help Sablestar.

"Okay." he said after a long moment of consideration. "I'll do it."

There was a brief pause as mismatched eyes bore into their own, sharp as the talons of a hawk.

"But when you come back, you have to tell me everything-- what you saw, where you went, all of it." Even if it there was nothing but a black void, or if to Sable it felt like going from one moment to the next– one moment suffocating in Wolfpacks hold, the next opening his eyes with nothing to recal in between– the deputy was determined to add to his limited notes on the matter in any way he could.

"Consider it my payment for guarding your body from the scavengers until you come back." he added, the corner of his lips twitching upward into a smirk. "Do we have a deal, Sablestar?" he asked, claws slowly unsheathing in the grass beneath him.



  • ooc : — Next post will be murder >:)
  • shadowclan deputy - male - mentoring Cloudberrypaw - a large, monochrome chimera with mismatched eyes and several scars

 

Wolfpack found no humor in his demand- because there was none to be had. Sablestar struggled to meet him in the eye as the shame of his fear clawed at his throat, his tail lashing as Wolfpack insisted this was some foolish fight to prove loyalty. No, the tuxedo had brought him here because he had remained loyal to ShadowClan.

His choice of deputy had been met with rippling murmurs and rumor, once. He challenged and snapped and bit, snarled and sneered and resisted as if the weight of the word Deputy weighed little on his shoulders. A killer, far more of one than Sablestar was. Blood soaked up to the knees in the lives he had taken- but that was what made him the perfect choice. Sablestar couldn't do it himself, he wasn't able to bare his claws against his own brother. His action to put an end to Hawthorne had been the pressure of all those lives now in his charge with winter facing them down.

"Don't make me demand it." Sablestar growled lowly. He wasn't going to be humiliated any further than he already felt and luckily it finally clicked for the other that he was genuine. "Deadly serious, I'm afraid." Unfortunate his dry tone did little to relieve him of the tension closing in on him. Not even a bit of humor could save him, not when it was so close to happening. To being real.

Of course there is a deal to discuss- tasting his blood without consequence wasn't enough of a reward. It was simple enough, at least. Sablestar held utter faith Fleecefur would not lie to him about her gifts. He couldn't have stood there through each agonizing second receiving them for nothing. Not when her goal was to reject the spread of StarClan and see ShadowClan prosper.

"You have my word. If it's something I'm able to remember coming back... you will know of it." His eyes lowered to the sight of Wolfpack's claws finding their grasp between the blades where his own could not still from trembling. Marred eyelids closed together, then, and tilted his head back for his Deputy. Even through his fear, he would die embracing it rather than cower.

  • "mew"
  • SABLESTAR— he/him ・sixty moons ・leader; shadowclan ・penned by gonkpilled
    a black and white tuxedo with dark amber eyes