Lucille was a beacon of reason in the depths of the despair that consumed them. Repulsive, cold, and unwelcome. Perhaps all things she desired to be, but he sought none of it- she came to him with this attitude. She walked past Nutmeg like a ghost- a mere body block away from saving her life, but she let her go. He shouted at that, a raspy sound akin to a pained 'why?'
As much faith as he had in Nutmeg, nothing… nothing was stronger than that force that claimed their home. Not her, not Meadow. Even from here, he felt the anger in it's glow. It lit up the once dark sky, and the grass, and it illuminated Lucille's form; as if demanding his full attention. She'd earned it.
The kit retaliated against her all too rested demeanor with a hiss- cursing her impassiveness; hackles tall as he flipped back onto his stomach. For a moment, he was ready to pick a fight. Ready to release all the feelings that bubbled up into his throat and made it tight, but how could now- this- ever be the time? Then the energy dissipated, a moment of clarity gripped Peafowl and his large ears twisted and lowered. He wasn't like that. He couldn't take her in a fight. He held firm to his feelings, but he was never so mean. Yet the words he wanted to say to her. He swallowed hard. "...I- I'm sorry ma'am, that's my sister runnin' back in there, I let-you let her." His lips drew into a fine line- his mind a storm in its own right- Peafowl restrained himself. Nutmeg's blood is on this molly's pelt if she doesn't make it back out alive, Peafowl swore it, taking her impassive face to memory. Her empty words.
Peafowl's eyes burned, but he was sure he cried out all the ash that otherwise still dulled the rest of his thick coat. An intrusive thought had his eyes raise in an attempt to peek past Lucille, but he stopped himself, looking down at the cool grass. No, no he didn't want to see. "You're right, she'll be back. I'm waitin' for her." It was a statement. His words were no less cold and direct than Lucille's own.
Words were the only power he held. Too young and inexperienced to retaliate. He could squirm. He could thrash and swipe and maybe irritate an adult slightly. His tail slapping the earth and his refusal to look up was his only warning that he wouldn't go quietly. Leave me be. Please. Please, leave me be. It was getting hard to find the energy to continue putting up a fight.
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peafowl he/him, barn cat, four moons, 10.13.24
∅ long haired blue smoke chimera with bright amber yellow eyes
comically large, fluffy ears and a long tail with black striped markings
maine coon genetics
always smiling. ever optimistic
∅ mentored by x
∅ open to all bonds
∅ peaceful and healing powerplay permitted
∅ penned by idola / / tag @.idola appreciated
OOC
@LUCILLE